trust

the humidity is not only physically draining, but mentally, too. both days this weekend, i ran outside in 80 degrees/90% humidity. Start time on Saturday was 7am, Sunday was 6:30am. both days i had to take walk breaks. probably more walk breaks than i ever have in the past. this humidity is humbling, frustrating and messes with my confidence. it’s so easy to get down on myself and think, “what is your problem? why are you walking? you’re going to slow. you’re not gonna make it.” Those were some of the thoughts in my head this weekend. But, I knew i could not allow myself to give those thoughts much energy or else my time outside was just going to be worse. I HAD to change my thoughts…and i did. i was able to mentally make a list of the pros/cons of the run which got me into an objective state of mind. And then at one point, i just had to let go…because it just is what it is…and i have to accept it. I cannot run my normal pace in these humid conditions. I cannot run as far as i want to in these conditions. Accept it and move on.

I have to trust myself. I have to trust my body. I am still getting in the miles and doing what i need to do.

One of the best things about running is that it teaches you, it compels you do to be self-sufficient. there is no one else out there to lean on. there is no one else to “pass the ball to“.

I got in a 2nd run Sunday evening on treadmill for 4.5 miles, giving me just over 20 miles for the day.

Total for the week was 35.

Pressing onward…